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Sunday, 06 September 2009

  • Now It's Time to say goodbye... UPDATED!

    So, now that I have a personal blackberry :) I figured I needed to upgrade my blogging capabilities. So, I've decided to go with Wordpress since I've heard that the BB app is pretty cool, which is great for me since most of the times I feel like blogging I'm not sitting in front of an actual computer. So, this will be my last Xanga post. You all have treated me well while I was here and I do appreciate that. If you'd like to keep up via my new blog you can check me out at www.FearlessReprisal.blogspot.com (UPDATED)


    So long, good bye, adios, sayonara, peace!

Saturday, 22 August 2009

  • Currently
    Ready
    By Trey Songz
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    Finding My Father - Part 7

    Ok, so its been quite a minute since my last post. Life has gotten in the way of me consistently posting. I'm not gonna say much cuz if I attempted it would be entirely too long. So, I'll just pics of my Dad and 2 sisters. Maybe tomorrow I'll talk about the nice (smch!) little message my Dad's wife left me. If I have the time I might just transcribe it so you all can get the full effect. Anyways, here you go.

    My Dad



    My Sister - Jhana



    My Sister - Ariana



    Well, there you go...that's me other side. Aren't my sisters gorgeous? Yup, I know they are

Friday, 03 July 2009

  • Finding My Father - Part 6

    This one is going to be rather short... a vent of sorts. No, not directly about my Dad. He's great and everything has been going well with getting to know each other. We celebrated our first Fathers Day. I sent him 26 different cards for every year I've been alive going in chronological order from a 1st Father's Day card to little princess cards to teenybop cards all the way to the more meaninful adult cards. I also sent him a large picture frame with about 10 pictures from a baby photo to a more recent one and everything in between. He loved it and even showed my sisters. He said they loved it to. He told me that they're very close and actually tells them more about me than he tells his wife, which brings me to my vent.

    I feel like i could cry right now...so I hadnt talked to my Dad all week and he was tellin me what was goin on. Apparently his wife, Ann, saw my gift to him for fathers day and flipped. he said she reacted in such a way that he was in serious shock...threw him for a loop. He was like that he thinks her reaction has more to do with her own issues and that he doesn't know what to do but let her work them out because she's shutting him out. It jah hurts for this woman to not even try to get to know me and for my Dad to have to be caught in the middle of maintaining his relationship with his wife and building one with me. I know my Dad is saying it's not really about me. Its hard to completely believe that. I'm sure it's not completeely about me, but it does have something to do with me. He won't tell me what she's said mainly because he wants to protect me from that. Part of me wants to know...part of me wants to meet with her/speak with her even before she has warmed up to the idea of me. Maybe I'm being naive but I think I could help her to understand some things and maybe even come to love me in her own way. Anyways, my Dad is srill coming to visit and is looking to lock in the dates this week for sometime near the end of thia month. I told him that I was going to Florida August 1st-9th so he could make sure to avoid those dates.

    I love my Daddy and I hope and pray I can get to know my step-mother and have a relarionship with her one day as well.

Monday, 15 June 2009

  • Currently
    Purpose
    By Algebra
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    Searching for my Father - Part 5

    Ok, so, my Dad still hasn't come to visit :( but he still is coming. He's had some business stuff he had to handle, but really I think he's really trying to balance being excited that I'm in his life and the fact that his wife isn't sharing in that excitement at all. I asked him about how she was handling the news and he was very careful in what he said. I could tell he was trying to protect my feelings, which I love him for. That's the kind of thing I always imagined a Dad would do. Anyways, he told me that she'll come around and that it was just taking her a while, but that he did wish she could and would share in his joy. He definitely told me not to worry about it and I don't. I do pray for her and my 2 sisters. I can't imagine being on their end of this situation. I hope she openly communicates with my Dad about her feelings and becomes open minded about me being in their life. I do hope to have a relationship with her and my sisters one day.

    On the flip I've talked to both of my aunts., Carla and Jennifer, and my Grandma Geri. They're all so sweet and cute. I have noticed in my brief conversations with them that this whole getting to know eachother phase seems more awkward for them than it does for me. Its like they're trying to extend themselves but they don't know what to say. It's like as soon as they say hi they are saying bye. I laugh on the inside because I do appreciate them calling and checking on me, but also because I really wish they'd relax a little. But again I couldn't imagine what's going on in their brains at all. All they know is they have a neice/granddaughter who is 26 and they know nothing about. I'm thankful that it hasn't been that way with my Dad. We're becoming more and more comfortable with each other with each conversation. I guess it's a good thing he didn't come down right off the bat because now we'll be familiar with each other to some extent. Apparently everytime my grandmother talks to him she pushes the fact that he needs to come see me and I really appreciate that. He said that when he tells me a specific date that he will most definitely be coming and he should know soon when that will be.

    Also, since we can't go to his brother's wedding on June 27th in Belize he said he wants to try to plan a trip over the Christmas holidays. :) Oh Jesus please! Work it out! I really want to go down to Belize and meet my family and really immerse myself on the other half of me.

    PS. I learned that my father was born in Jamaica and according to my Jamaican friend that makes me Jamaican to... I didn't quite agree with him. Although,. if it does qualify me as Jamaican then it truly makes sense of some things about me. Anyone who really knows me knows why it would make sense. What do you say?

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

  • McCafe

    Ok, so this isn't exactly about McDonald's McCafe coffee cuz I have yet to have it, but rather about the 2 songs neo-soul artist, Dwele, did to help promote McDonald's new venture into specialty coffee drinks. View videos below...if he didn't actually say McCafe in the songs I wouldn't know he was talking about coffee ;) LOL

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